I was recently reminded that I should start a blog…
There is so much to talk about, as my life was and has been pretty crazy. So just a heads up now, my blogs will be honest, real, raw, funny, serious and more.
Welcome to Ashley’s corner…
Who is Ashley? That’s a great question.
I like to compare myself to Wonder Woman, as I’m always trying to help and save everyone else, but never take care of myself. I have a heart of gold, which has its pros and cons. If you know, then you know. I am open minded, and like to look at situations from other perspectives. I like to put myself in other people’s shoes to see their view on things, which is what a lot of people in this world fail to do.
So that you understand me, my heart and my mission...here’s a little of my background.
My parents divorced when I was 3 years old. My mom was an alcoholic, an abusive one at that. I watched her beat my dad up when I was 3 years old. My mom beat me a few times, left marks, but nothing was ever done. My dad and stepmom even took me to the police station one time, and they “couldn’t” do anything. When my first stepdad left the picture in 2002, I remember calling my dad at work telling him I want to move in with him. I was 13 years old at the time, just finished middle school. He called my mom and told her. My mom came home and called me every damn name in the book. She said she hated me, didn’t love me, said I was a mistake and talked badly about my dad and my stepmom. My mom then started to hit me.
My heart was broken because I felt like I was failing my two brothers (half brothers) as I was leaving them behind. I knew I was doing the right thing, focusing on me and trying to do better for myself. However my “mother hen” tendencies never stopped. If you have the “mother hen” tendencies then you understand. Let me add that DCFS was in and out of our lives when I lived with my mom. I always got blamed that they were called because I would talk about what happened at home while I was at school.
People ask me what I want to be when I “grow up”, or what I want to do in life. Honestly, it’s simple…I want to help people. There are so many people who have it worse in life. I like to be the sunshine in someone’s gloomy day.. There’s so much negativity going on in the world, but I always try to find the positive to focus on in every situation. Everyone handles their anger, anxiety, depression, grief and more differently. There is no right or wrong way; whatever helps you is what matters. I just ask that you don’t do any harm to yourself. There is always a silver lining, but sometimes we are too wrapped up in our emotions to see it, hear it, and nonetheless accept it. We live in such a fast paced world that we want results immediately, but it doesn’t work like that. Remember it’s one day at a time. Not every day will be a great day, but every day should be a good day because you were blessed to see another day.
I hope that my blog will inspire people to reach out for help, and understand that it’s okay to not be “okay”, you’re human and have valid feelings. I want to encourage people to not stay stuck in their anger, anxiety, depression, guilt, misery and whatever else you’re going through. Times are crazy now, but if you stick around you’ll see how I’ve overcome so much.
You will find out in every blog that Ashley is very strong minded and strong willed. Ashley is not a quitter, she doesn’t give up. She may hit rock bottom for a little, but she picks herself back up and starts with a new plan. She has a passion to help others, love on others, but doesn’t fully invest in herself. I am a work in progress, as we all are.
Remember you are amazing! You are uniquely made, and you have purpose here on earth….now go find it!!
Stay tuned for the second blog!
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